AHH I feel so stressed out doing college apps. The whole letter of recommendation process is taking forever. Blahblahh stupid private schoools. Added to the stress I'm on my period, and I'm consuming fried pork skins & an Arizonaa. What am I doing to my booody!



Oh yeaa, haha Carolyn & I are doin track again HAHAHHAA.

Caught

Caught red-handed you dumb bitch. Why would you do something so stupid? Especially to people you barely even know. Oh welll now that is taken care of, I honestly think that was a test from God.

October is gonna be soo BZ.
- two yrs !??!?!?!
- SAT II
- hc !??!?!?!
- bdaaay
- license test
- hallloweineer
- UC college apps/ Letter of Rec -_-

Crazy

Crazy intense day .. not gonna get into detail. Dumb bitch.. Woah so emotionally drained. On the brighter side, my mom told me to ask ***** to hc tehhehehe.

whole enchilada is nastuh

Believe nothing of what you hear and only half of what you see. I've tried. I don't deserve any of this. I'm tired and worn out. It's time to give up now.

You know exactly how to pinpoint my weak spots.

What is this! I'm like on an emotional rollercoaster, somedays I feel like I'm on a high of 75.. then the next second I'm crushed like acorns. I already made a decision and then I hear something totally misleading. How am I suppose to react when I hear that from you and it is not true. Of course i'ma want to defend myself but you just won't let me talk. I do care about the way you feel, so I don't know where this is coming from, I also know that you may be hurt, but let me explain and tell you that none of it is true. Please, be ears and listen for once.

It sucks cus I know that things aren't going according to plan, but even though they aren't doesn't mean you have to leave me hanging there. I hate wasting my time waiting for long endless hours, then again what other choice do I have right? If you don't want to contribute then let me know so I can lay off. Cus it's just heart breaking waiting for something that isn't even there.

Grumpy Bunny story time in the car while munchin' on hot fritos & lemonade!? What am I doin? Gaah i'm bound to trap myself. Alll's fair in love and war.

Two boba drinks, in-n-out, pizza hut, yoshiyoya, mcd's, happy wok, boiling crab, alll in the past week. I think I'm losing it. Got to see baby german shepherds yesterday, hopefully I can get another puppy.


ps: I'm trying so hard, but I think I might just lose it and just snap.. oh wait I suppose I already did.

pps: I'm not in the mood to go to hc, but I know eventually I will want too blargh.

And I thought I felt sorry for you. But NO i'm starting to feel sorry for myself. I just found out some shady stuff that I'm never gonna forgive you for. I'm hurting so badly now. FML seriously, what did I do to deserve this?

By far

the worst day of my life.
fuck my 11 yr old brother and his constant black mailing. shit now it's out in the open, and i suppose i'ma be grounded till who knows when .. until college yo no se. shivers running through my spine. fuck this day, eventually this will result into a choice i do not want to make.

Back when we were naive and where it mattered. When shattered hearts would race to the finish line to win it's prize. What typa front are we tryna put up these days? What's the value in anything anymore? Did lobsters and turtles just build a measly fort for nothing?

Lets just say, ignorance is bliss.

*******

Sell-out

I thought it hit hard on me when my bestfriend and I lost contact. Nonetheless, this I feel deceived, betrayed. I recall it was only yesterday when I placed a trust in you, only you. That feeling that I couldn't obtain from just anyone, since the last time I lost someone so close to me. How am I suppose to feel right now? Abashed I must say, certainly a damn slap in my face. Oh, that reminds me when you asked me if it would hurt if you ever did that to me. Whatda you think now buddy!? You just totally screwed me over. People like this force me to foresee that there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Pessimistic you may presume, take it or leave it.

Bein sick staanks

decent version of Boiling Crab ha.

Had to miss the Branding Iron game cus I was really sick, got jt sick as well, sowies boo.

Free Chipotle!

Hahaha spent the day sniffing and coughing. Oh pooor me. Michael Chiang and his remarks of "black people" on his presentation in Henson's class, just priceless HAHA. Went to the new Chipotle in Puente to get free food :) Thanks Tiffanie & Amanda Cheng for lettin me kno! The downside was the 2 hour line, plus side got a burrito with guacamole & a draank.


ps: I feel so sick, idk if I'll be able to go to the branding iron game tmrw )= I want too thoo.

AchoOoOoo

So I just got a call about the outta the districts approval. Because of the budget cuts, they were goin to enforce students to go to the school in their own districts ..which means I would have to attend Rowland High during my senior year. But it's alll goood now, the approval passed and now the outta the district kids can stay, not like I wanna stay in Db tho -_-

Omgaaah I feel so sick once again. I feel bad for abusing my nose by constantly blowing it. I love when taitai visits meeh. Went to eat pho with my dad today, either pho tastes like shit when it's not homemade or I couldn't taste anything because I feel so nauseated. Still thinkin what I should do for my bday, nothing biiig, maybe morning breakfaast with jatpak since there is lame ol school >_< or ditch school to go to Disneyland :) OR go to Glen Ivy Re$ort & get red clay on my body + massages. HmmMmm..

Indecisive

Fun-filled weekend with my fam that kept my mind offa things .. well sorta, not really I suppose it's always on my mind. I love goin to the beach every damn weekend :) but it's all gonna change when winter comes around =( Bj's for lunch, DQ (strawberry cheesecake jst for you), shopshopshoppang, attempt to go to Boiling Crab but I guess it had to close early ugh, my cravings.. Kinda broke my usb for my camera so I can't upload any pics from my camera bleh. Been havin the sniffles all day todaay I think it started to occur after that big wave blew me over. Oh yes, I suck hard at body boarding hah. Went to Starbucks wif bf zis morningg since I assumed noone wanted to waake up eaarly. Other than that, I cannot wait for this week to endd!

Oh btw, take care Brandon Riley. I don't know who you are but you've seemed to be remembered by many people. I've heard quite of few things that you've been through in the past, it must have been so dreadful to deal with. I will pray for you & your family.

Inglorious Bastards

Haha this week has been one of the worst weeks everr, don't even wanna explain. Plans changed tooday, was suppose to go to Saigon pho to get a sponser, but I guess we'll go another day, then originally I was gonna go to the PC mixer, however I didn't feel like it no more. Ate at Guppy House & watched Inglorious Bastards with my boyf. I suppose there were a few "aha" moments (why am I talken like Mrs. Davis now), alot of brutal violence, I enjoyed it ayaat tho. Eggcited for this weekend, beach on sunday agaaaain!

Another pathetic day

FU

I'm pretty pissed off right now, this time it's not about boyfriend/family/friends issues. Who do you think you are anyway? Are you tryna preceed some type of legitimacy with your fucking authority.