Can't wait to go to Lake Tahoe from July4-July8. I need to get out of this fucking place. Thought you were better than this.

I got this in the mail today :) so cute.

Heat

Today's weather is haaawt! Can't wait to beach it. Woke up today and found out that my uncle got rushed to the hospital cus he was having heart problems =( So the family came to my house and we just chilled and went to see Father Alex. He gave all of us a blessing. Took my last driving lesson today, haha I finally drove on the freeway o_o Goin to Boiling Crab with Family now, and I needa study for my two tests tmrw. One more week!

Aw EDC is today! I wanna gooo!


Update:
Black Angus, Costco, Church, Summerfest, Tea Rush to visit Jt, Family BBQ (=

RIP MJ

So yesterday.. all over the news/mtv was talking about Michael Jackson's death. I was seriously in shock for a good 5mins. Summer school grade suckkks, and Sat scores came yesterday -_- Mom ordered a new phone/plan for me yesterdaay. Was gonna get the Samsung impression or Blackberry curve 8900 cus it was super preetty, but then it needed internet and I don't need that shit. Suppose to go to Disneyland with Tarbear & Plattapussy but I have a driving lesson today, that man better not make any excuses this time.

Last of Happy 17th Birthday Bestfweend! :) Beach next weeek!


Update 6:05pm
Driving instructor came an hour early..and said that I scheduled that time the fuck. Anyways is Mitchell Reed Fox a tranny?!?!?!?!..or who they call Megan Fox.

Transformers & more

So summer school hasn't been doin me good lately. Hard stufff at sucha fast pace =( Today was the first day we didn't have a test, therefore he pushed a TWO-chapter test for tmrw boooo. Also another test tmrw, and we only can miss 3 max..less than that will equal a 0%. Other than that today was a fun-filled day, just what I needed. James picked me up afterschool and we headed to Wood Ranch bbq at the Shoppes. Strawberry-lemonade with sugar on the mouth piece & Ribs :) Headed to Harkin's after lunccch, tried to make the 2:10pm show, but we got lost LOL soo stupid we went the way back home -_- and the worst part was there was a dumb popo who was sneaking in the corner and we thought he was chasing after us but it was the car before uss, hahaa. Found out there was a 2:50pm shooow, but we had to sit all the way in the fronnnt since it was so crowedd. I enjoyed this Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen better than the first oneee, lots of action thoo. Thanks for making my day. Now I needa study a shitload tonight haa.

My driving instructor can smd.
-First lesson:
He arrives 30 mins late without calling, asian no wonder.. he's impatient as fuck, and his car smells like 5 days leftover magnolia beef.
-Second lesson:
-Mom calls to confirm the time, he says ok. An hour later, he tells us that his car broke down, wtf geez.

I have way more pics in my camera I need up upload -_- stupid usb cord ]=

Insomnia

Yeahhh..I keep talken about it, but I really think I've captured this for a year.. I'm so tired barely gettin in any sleep for the past few days, can't wait till 1pm tmrw! Don't think I'ma go to the beach with theeem, cus I've been so exhausted lately. Anyway, today was a good day, other than my test. Ran in 2 mins late for class again, walked in and saw James sittin in the hallway with a bag of donut holes for me, thank you (= Afterschool rented Paul Blart Mall Cop and ordered pizza with James, then starbucksss. Tried to take a nap at home, but I can never sleep till 12am fml..I'm so tired I just want to sleep. So many tests! Oh yeahh someone come to the 24 hr fit at Puente with me!


REMINDER: I needa turn in my job appps & Worker's permit this week!

Summer stress

I'd have to say, chem in the summer is harder than chem honors. Or maybe everything is goin so fast, and that Hwang is giving us a shitload of outlines, notes, book problems. We had two tests today, I thought I managed to get at least a B on the first one..I was wrong -_- Second one I Aced it wthhh. I'm soo tired, and I have insomnia!!!!! My sleeping habits are so unbalanced I can't even take a quick nap in the afternoon, freaking suckss. Ahh summer school wreeks but I'm still gonna try to work hard. I'm assuming we have a test (s) everyday, okay I needa finish bye!

First day of summer school

Wow I'm super exhausted at the moment. Could barely sleep last night, I seriously have insomnia even tho the school year has past. Got to school today and there was a mob of people tryna find their classes. It took me 10 mins to realize that I was looking at the wrong side, so I went to look at the stupid Tuition side, and I had Mr. Hwang. They say he's the hardest AP bio teacher? Eh Idk, walked into class 10 mins late cus I had a hard time finding it haha. Had to sit right in the front -_- Everyone is like either a sophomore or junior, and I'm like the only Senior. It was funny how the teacher was making jokes how like if parents called him saying their child was staying up on the computer doin hw till 2am, they weren't, and that they were just watching porn hahahaa, then he started making 69 jokes!? ha, honestly I learned alot today compared to Mrs. Bravo's class, cus she didn't teach for shit or it was honors OR maybe it's easier for me cus it's my second time around x_x I'm tired, and there is a huge test tmrw and alot of homework ugh, just 3 weeeeeks.

ps: Thanks for Guppy's house boba :)

Congrats

Lakers :)! Game five was boring, but it's alrightt Lakers won (=
Today went to Viet Town, Grandpa's graveside, Boiling Crab, and Yogurt land. Kinda burnt my hand a wittle bit =( Summer school starts tmrw aah.


& itrhimysmijwtbua.

Jobhunting

Sooo this weeek has been goin fairly smoothly, till today.

• Was suppose to go to Huntington on Monday with some of JATPAK but didn't kno till later.
• Forgot what I did on Tuesday, oh 11pm Carl's Jr run. Lakers lost =(
  
• I went to see UP with my dad on Wednesday :)
• Thursday went to Banana Bay/Cue with Carolyn and Paul. Lakers gamee..ooh Fisher and his three-pointers [:
  
• Today went Jobhunting at Puente, and lemme tell ya it's not easy finding one these days, damn economy. Also I'm very limited to certain stores because of I'm only 16 1/2 gaah.
• Tmrw I have my first driving lesson -_-
  
• Summer school starts on Mondaaay UGH.
• AND every damn friday, I swear..

Blasphamy

Asdfjkl; reeediculouss feelings racing through my heart right now.

So..Coach Desai fucking hates my gutss..first he makes me stay at track till the last week of school, unlike the other juniors, then he gives me a B in track...WTF is his problem.

Summer To-do List
-Go to 24 more often and lose 6 pds (mom insists -_-)
-Jobhunting (mom insists -_-)
-Finish my driving lessons cus I lagged.
-Get an A in summer school.
-Write an essay for the OC newspaper article contest, d.d: July 16 (mom insists)
-PLAYPLAYPLAY.

Edit 8:46pm
UP is sucha good movie. The grandpa is soo cute, I love old men tehehhe.

Conflicted

When you try your best but you don't succeed. When you get what you want but not what you need. When you feel so tired but you can't sleep. Stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face. When you lose something you can't replace. When you love someone but it goes to waste. Could it be worse? And high up above or down below. When you're too in love to let it go. But if you never try you'll never know just what you're worth.

I honestly don't know how I'm feeling now. My feelings are just bottled up, and I'm in my own little comfort zone. I never wanted things to get this far, and of course I shouldn't be the one mourning about it, but this wasn't what I wanted, it just had to happen. I'm confused on whether I should move on or just wait. The thing is..I don't wanna move on, accepting change is so difficult for me, I know it will help me, however I just can't leave the memories. I want to wait, but am I really waiting for something? I hate dealing with this stuff, I wish it was all a nightmare. This seriously is the icing on the cake to my summer.

I just realized something

Adios junior year!

Wow, the end of junior year has finally came. I've been marking the days till this day came. I think this has been a major eye-opener in my high school life. It started off with backstabbing friends, relationship problems, unable to fully concentrate because of the ruckus going on around me, first time taking honor classes, my mother getting her first surgery in her life (brain tumor), my puppy that James' bought me dying, putting so much effort into eng3h and excluding my other classes I realized no matter how much I tried I just wasn't able to get the grade I wanted, peercounseling Christmas party @ the Diamond Bar center, and best of all passsing Mrs. Kelly's class. I had thought things were going to get much more complex second semester, because I wasn't in eng3h anymore, but I was wrong. Trig/anal had taken over my lifeee, with the 5hrs of studying with my tutor for every test $35/hr..damn. Did what I had to do and tried not to regret itt. Drama-rama with friends, ditching track, glad JATPAK got closer this year, taco tuesdays, and having the coach make Max and I stay for track a the last few weeks. Mr. Jung gave Andy and I a $10 yogurtland gc when Jotham gets a medieval poster of Brad pitts HAHAHA. This year, I've looked at college alittle more serious, and realized that the future is in my hands in highschool by determining what I'm capable of achieving. And now you all kno how much I dealt with throughout this year, especially with my mom's surgery, so please don't carelessly judge me. Word of advice from the seniors, that we should work hard in highschool, however stressing out isn't worth it, cus in a few years will you remember the project you left in the car, or the test you failed? Oh well, haha we can't take that advice just yet..we still needa work hard for one more year in highschool! As for now, I'm SO OVER junior year, and I'm ready for senior year.

Graduation was goood, went with JATAK. Wish I hung out with the seniors after, guess I made the wrong choice by leavinnng before 9. I took pics at grad but since my usb cord for my camera is malfunctioning I'm still waiting to steal people's pics from facebook.

Today woke up at 6am and got ready for the SATS. Omg so boringg, so nervous about what I got on it, didn't really prep for it. After I saw Ron waitinnng, so then he gave others an I a ride back to Db, dropped me off at Starbucks to meet up with my bestfrieeend. Went to the Chino hills shoppess, Chipotle, SHOPPINGGGG TEHEHHE, V.S oh yess. After, we just chilled and went to Yogurtland and played a few rounds of cards. Car ride was super fun HAHAHA I love your playlist!

Mentality

AHHHH this weeek has certainly been alternating my emotions! From being blissful/content to discouraged/miserable to dazed/misled and then to ansty/anxious. So much has happened this weeeek, on the brighter note I got a 74% in chem h :) heh so much for last semester Mrs.Bravo, oh how I resent you. I currently have a borderline grade in spanissh, hopefully I maintain that grade with my final tmrw.

As of right now, I'm still debating on whether I should hangout with JATPAK + graduation tmrw night or just chill at home and study for SATS. It's kinda weird cus originally I was planning on attending graduation, but there has been so many bumps on the road this week and I kinda need a breaak. Plus SATS on saturday, I really need to get onto that ish. Maybe I'll just stay home and study for it? Idk. Ohohhh, since I have T.A 4th period tmrw, my teacher said I can come @ 10am? But I'm not sure if I have a ride theen, so I guess i could come early and study more for spanish!? Andd I hate how the libarians are making all the students return their books ONLY with their classrooms, doesn't it make it harder for them cus they have to deal with the long lines in the morning/lunch/afterschool? Oh whatevvver. Mmkay bye!

Finals #1

Woke up at 8:30am to study for chem, heh not early enough. Arrived at school at 9:20 and studied s'more. Took the chem final omgaaah, Bravo is so dumb. Ozaki kept talking to her outside and she left the door closed, so obviously people cheated, but the test was so hard. Sigh, I just needa pass, I always regret taking honors, I'm not fit with the intelligent snobs who were born with a genuis IQ, or the ones who study and get the grades they deserve, unlike mee something always goes wrong arghh. As of now, my mind cannot stop thinking about chem. Was deciding whether I should stay till 6th and check in for track or just leave at lunch, and so I just went to Colima Burgers with James and studieed. After texting with Bianca, it made me really regret not checking into track, cus what if that was my FINAL grade for track. Desai bettter not gib me a B, he once asked me if I wanted a D in track..in a sarcastic way thoo. Okay I needa study for ingles now, and make my mom cook Mac'n cheese for my peercounseling party manana!

Edit 8:20pm
HAhaha watched the Finale of The Hills, Spencer and Heidi need to stop -_- I love how having Direct tv can let you watch shows 3 hours ahead from all the other cable tvs. Watched the new season of Paris my new BFF. Pfft..talk about pathetic.